Simplicity

March 2008, enroute to Elephanta caves , somewhere near Mumbai , Gate way of India ,i saw this fisherman village .Few boats stading on the shore with the Indian Flag fying high in the air.It was a admirable sight .Isnt it strange that people who live under constant threat of poverty and deprivation tend to be more patriotic than the ones so called" affluent" .India lives in these villages and in the hearts of all these great Indian's who dont shy away from saying that I am Indian and no matter what my country offers me ,I love it as it gives me shelter and gives me my daily bread.How pure and simple life with basic expectations.
When i was a child and i used to see my maid's children laughing over nothing and playing with the branches of trees ,i used to feel how strange how can one laugh over inane stuff ? I mean a discussion should be intelligent ,comprehensive and dignified ..Little did i know i need to learn from them the art of being happy , truly happy ..the art to rejoice life in whatever form / whatever shape and whatever dimension.They may be far from intelligent and being literate but they can laugh on themselves and can find reasons to smile.Isn't that commendable.In today's world how many people can look at the hopping butterfly and smile..haven't we forgotten that somewhere ?
This is my ode to simplicity...all pervasive and ever charming

Kya sundarta sarvoch hai ,ya sunder hai voh ankhen jo sundarta ko niharti hai !!!

Beyond the sky....

Some times i wonder ,what next ? past ten years or so have been like a roller coaster ride.I have had small goals and plans and have worked like a maniac to achieve them.I always believed in my dreams...my dream to own my house , my car , a good job and today i have it all ..Guess the thrill is not in reaching your destination the thrill is in the journey to achieve the impossible.To reach out for the sky.Today i am sitting alone and trying to create higher goals for myself.That's the only thing which keeps me busy & happy to run after my ambitions and my dreams ...I keep telling life ,Hey am coming to get ya !! Be prepared ...
Life has been quite unfair still i love it , I thank God for all the small things being bestowed upon me and my family .I am alive, i can breathe , can smell good food , can eat good things , can admire a blossoming flower or sunset ,can hear the murmur of the leaves and the chirping of the birds, can cuddle snuffy ( my dog ) and feel so loved...Isn't it all amazing! .No matter i have lost a lot in life still i don't wanna give up , want to continue on this journey until i find my final abode...
Until then ...I shall look beyond the sky

My fondest pictures : )

Life from my window

My day started quite late today ,my alarm forgot to kiss me it seems and my dreams just got over me and i snoozed for long..woke up only to realise gosh am dead late for work and may be am not upto it today.what next a lazy manu at home doing nothing,just gazing at the sky through the window of my bedroom.It rained today,dont know why am so crazy about rains ,i simply love the feel of those droplets touching my skin and giving me a shiver.
watched this wonderful movie called "Life is beautiful" and by the end of it i was awestruck as it is a peice of work ,simply incredible.
So much pain yet so much love ,so much care,love which is unconditional.May be only a parent can offer such a pious and unconditional love.For me i have always been blessed with mum's love and care,someone who adores me and prays for me, she has been my mother aswell as my father.I will always be indebted to her for whatever she has done for me.For making me the strongest woman with immense fortitude along with deep sensitivity. papa only comes in my dreams sometimes ,very faint and very distant.That's how he had always been for me ...a man whom i never knew ,a man whom the world could not know, a man who was pure hearted yet was the most misunderstood .A man who left us all , a man for whom i couldnt do much.A man who will always be my father.
Everytime i think of putting something down i tell myself not to sound so philosophical and emotional but may be that's me...and thats quite inseperable now.
Life from my window is blue and grey, with lots of rain clouds.Its silent and still just like life becomes at times...exactly when its about to unfold some mysteries or bestow you with some stupendiuos gift.I still remember being a child we use to wait for rains as it brought along lots of goodies ,mum made malpua ( indian sweet parantha) with kheer ( rice & milk in sugar syrup),oh how i used to hog on it.I can still close my eyes and relish the taste !
Today i was thinking we dont see many birds fly in the air ,or is it that we dont have time at hand to observe the nature.As a child i used to gaze at the sky looking at many birds , eagles flying high and actually parasailing.It was so much fun ! Kids today can only identify with birds through thier scrapbooks or pictures ,wonder if they will ever get to see the real thing.Life has really moved fast.
Am gonna go an sip into my cuppa coffee..

Adieous for now,will be back

Dew Drops ....

Have you seen a dew drop dancing on the leaves
She says a lot by staying still…
I have also said what I ought to
With no malice and no regrets I got to
Live a life of sanity
With I ,me and my humanity
Life comes back in full circle
Before you may or you could decipher
You’ve lost quite a bit ,you see
Or you still at it, loosing by every bit

Deja Vu!

Where do all these thoughts go? Have you ever wondered every spoken word, every thought which runs past your mind doesn’t die, it gets registered somewhere in the universe and one day it resonates. You feel a sense of Déjà vu as if you have heard this some time back, was it few years back or was it a different lifetime!

These moments have been there before or r u having a time machine. You keep going back and forth in TIME .All those thoughts come alive, you live those moments again .If they are happy moments you are overwhelmed but if they are sad moments or your fears, no matter how much you despise but you go through them all over again, don’t know for how many years or for how many lifetimes!

Sometimes your innermost fears come alive, things you’ve been apprehensive of, situations you would never want to occur to you. And one day your inner most fears come forth in your real life standing tall in front of you. What do you do then? Run away or face it ? Feel threatened or get stunned, think that its some mystical power or feel sorry.
Every nano second you would have spent on thinking something whether good or bad will come back to you some day.These thoughts manifest in the universe .Nature never forgets anything and stores all your ideas , thoughts ,actions , words & karma’s .Its like a Bank account whatever you deposit and forget about it will bring it back.It has mystical powers to keep account of not merely your actions but everything.

Faces change but emotions keep coming back. Don’t want to believe ok try something keep thinking of meeting with an accident and you are preparing yourself for one.Think of your best friend deserting you and trust me these negative thoughts will manifest somewhere in the universe and will come back to you stalking you and who knows may be it happens ,faces may change but the intensity of those thoughts will not change.
I have heard some words which I had heard before, the face which spoke these words has changed but the emotions and the pain in those words were the same.I was stunned , can this happen ,same language ,same words ,same emotions , same pain….but coming from a completely different person

Life come & Embrace me.....

Life come and embrace me. You promised that one day you’ll come …I am waiting for that day. I watch the sun rising .The crimson east. I watch it dooming and then its all ivory .I again set my eyes towards the sky ,yet I see the same
My urges say to have a close encounter with you but you never wait and walk out of the vicinity to my neighbor’s house/I watch them from my window. You are pampering them ,you are comforting them. It’s all merry there.Everthing is lighted and here I see myself in the darkness ,in the mist standing still and alone. Even my shadow has left me and gone there to experience you.My eyes wide open ,dry & constantly watching them intoxicated with joy.Words began to elude me.I want to burst out speak and shout at you.But suddenly you disappear leaving me moaningAgain, I set myself.May be some day you will meet me in some dark remote lane of the coty and bestow some happiness .These are my urges to meet you, feel you & experience you.Be my friend and never desert me

I'll Remember

I will remember the way you walked in
Like a cascade rushing into the sea
I’ll remember your soothing voice so divine, so powerful
Which added a smile to my life
Like the sun you woke me up every morning
Like the stars you made even the darkest nights bright for me
Like the moon you were always smiling
I’ll remember your words for they were my voice
For everything else I can forget
But
I’ll remember the way you walked out
Making me lose my voice
Making me lose my strength
I heard somebody say
That I had my last breathe that day

To the Woods !

Take me to the dark, lovely woods
Take me to the valley of flowers
Take me to Pluto
Take me to venues
Take me to mars
Take me to a place
Where happiness would be ours
Where it is not , begged, borrowed or stolen
Take me to a place
Where my voice would eco mile & miles
A place garnished with genuine smiles
Take me a place where a tiny heart would beat for me
A place where I would love to be
If these are the place too distant for me
Take me a place thy call heaven
Where my light would merge with the supreme light
And let there be light everywhere
Let there be happiness in all spheres
Let no more soul recite these lines
Let no one dream of going to the pines

Nature's Beauty

Listen to the gurgle of a brook
Which catches your attention by a hook
Hear the sweet lullaby of the cascade
The beauty that god has made
Discover the aroma of flowers
Pleasing the soul of ours
Scent the breeze and the fog
Which is always in its best vogue
Experience the shady groove in summer
The dancing leaves creating a musical murmur
Watch the glory of the sunlight
Enchanting, magnificent and ever bright
Rest your heart and mind in peace
Give your eyes a feast
By experiencing the beauty of nature
The best ointment for every creature

I Cherish

I cherish those memories of childhood
When my eyes were a token of innocence
When I used to cry but there was a sense of compassion and love in my cry
When I used to hold somebody’s hand and used to feel confident about it
When I knew that someone is there to make me walk on my feet
I cherish those moments
When I used to talk to myself
Just because I knew that there is no one else to understand you better than yourself
When I used to cry because I had failed to win
Indeed knowing that I will win someday
I cherish those moments
When I used to admire
Not merely because things were wonderful
But because of an ultimate human in me

Deja Vu

Deja Vu

Where do all these thoughts go? Have you ever wondered every spoken word ,every thought which runs past your mind doesn’t die ,it gets registered somewhere in the universe and one day it resonates.You feel a sense of Déjà vu as if you have heard this some time back ,was it few years back or was it a different lifetime!

These moments have been there before or r u having a time machine.You keep going back and forth in TIME .All those thoughts come alive , you live those moments again .If they are happy moments you are overwhelmed but if they are sad moments or your fears ,no matter how much you despise but you go through them all over again, don’t know for how many years or for how many lifetimes !

Sometimes your inner most fears come alive, things you’ve been apprehensive of ,situations you would never want to occur to you.And one day your inner most fears come forth in your real life standing tall in front of you.What do you do then? Run away or face it ? Feel threatened or get stunned ,think that its some mystical power or feel sorry.Every nano second you would have spent on thinking something wheather good or bad will come back to you some day.These thoughts manifest in the universe .Nature never forgets anything and stores all your ideas / thoughts /actions / words & karma’s .Its like a Bank account whatever you deposit and forget about it will bring it back.It has mystical powers to keep account of not merely your actions but everything

Sparrow here you go !

Almost extinct ,cant see any of them in Delhi these days.Wonder sometimes how a simple bird species can become a delight for the eyes.

Simplicity is all Pervasive ,all mystifying and all glamorous

The Andaman Sea entharls me , will be there again with you...until then my friend miss me beside you,your soft sand slipping through my fingers and your moist breeze playing with my hair