True Self

True Self : There is a writer in me which wants to unleash itself from the mundane self. It pushes me, pinches me and pulls me to come closer to reality and self. My true self, which can only be known once you start spending time with yourself. Of knowing your being & your journey. When "self" beckons to you " follow" though its way can be hard & steep but it shall give you wings to fly. When your self talks to you, listen to it as there is a hidden path it wants you to take. question not where the path shall lead thou...as every path is illuminated by thee. Believe in that self as it is what was, what is and what shall be. Rest all is an illusion for you & me. Its in silence miracles happen, silently the wind touches the youthful leaves, silently the sun walks out of the clouds and silently the moon spreads its serenity, silently the baby grows in the womb, silently the winter turns to spring. Such is the beauty of silence and in silence buddha became enlightened. In silence Meera found true love...so how can silence take you away, it can only make you meet yourself. So do step into silence at times and meet that wonderful being you are, else you regret having not met a wonderful being.

The Past that was

Strange is life and stranger is god's wisdom. The past that seemed so difficult and ugly is now seeming as if it was perhaps the best days of my life. Why is it that we don't appreciate people when they are with us , why only we miss them and realise their value when they are gone ...and some are gone forever.
I feel empty handed now as all i collected was pebbles in search of pearls, not realising it takes times to fish out pearls from the ocean. Maybe that's god's way of answering all the questions , things you never value ,people you never cherish go far away from our lives and we don't even realize how and when it happens as it happens so swiftly and when you open your eyes you find yourself in a rather stranger world.
One of my friend always had a quote to share and once he shared " a known devil is better than an unknown devil" how true is it in life.
If one keeps moving forward in search of better and better you only end up getting the worst , the bottom line is " acceptance" , acceptance form the heart for all the circumstances , people , situations in your life.
I couldn't spend much time with my father he left us so early , i hadn't even known what a father's love is when it vanished from my life. Today i look back and i miss so many wonderful people who were a part of my life...today they are just memories.
I am still unable to see the silver lining to the dark clouds surrounding my life but i believe in god and i know the day will come soon when i would be free of the past.

Karma

There's a lot that goes on in the mind. Is it a journey? or is it a karmic pattern? Is it to take action and change the pattern? Can the karma be ever deleted or erased? Or is it that we can only do fresh positive karma and accumulate good fortune. Certain life situations that one has to face essentially one has to face there is no escape from them. Thats why one has to go through these challenging times, to cleanse ourself. We let go the heavy baggag

e and penalties. Multiple times i sit down and ponder upon these situations. I wonder could i ever have escaped those situations or surpassed them? may be never. I am sure there is a long history and mix of time & space behind each of them. I am the root ( reason) and the effect of it. Sad part is that my limited memory could not recall all those experiences of the past i can only remember experiences and events of this lifetime but i know i am not just a product of current circumstances. I have always existed through times and there were umpteen forms and human emotions i went though. So today i am a cause and an event. Though i have forgotten the causes but the events or manifestation is in my immediate environment. Life flows through me.....endlessly.